| Its been such a long time since ive talked on here, where do I start.
Well for one, since we last talked I joined every bridge burned as there vocalist. It was a good six months I spent with them. In that time I did there first full U.S. tour, recorded a debut cd for rise records, and played alot of shows and met alot of awesome people. However, as of late, i`ve come to that point in my life where I wasnt happy being in that band any longer. The feeling of incompleteness inside of me was a bit overwhelming. I fealt like I wasnt accomplishing anything, like everything that was happening with the band didnt matter. So with this, I fealt it was time to leave. Now im focusing on having a normal life for the first time in the last 3 years. I am getting a normal 9-5 job. I am actually going to have christmas money for once(which im excited about). I am planning on going back to school this winter, and I am excited for all of this. This isnt saying im not going to be in a band any longer. Some of my friends from sea turns red have started a new band called an endless city and I will be a part of that for sure. One thing that ive learned in these last few months. is how short life is. With my Grandfather in hospice, only given a few weeks to live, I see that death is a part of life and is coming alot sooner then we thought. With me being 21, its almost a deffinate that i`ll be dead sometime in the next 60-70 years. And while that might sound like a lot, it really isnt. It isnt enough time to change all of the wrong in this world. It isnt enough to love all the unloved and help all the unhelped. As I sit here watching an episode of scrubs, I think to myself that theres so many productive things that I could be doing right now instead of watching this tv show at 1:25 in the afternoon, or better yet, sleeping until 1:25 in the afternoon. Im still trying to find my purpose here, but whatever it is, I hope it involves helping and loving Gods people. Not taking a back seat while others try to make an impact. Yah thats whats on my mind now...I wont be back on this for a long time, if ever again. I doubt anyone reads this anyways |
